Pizza,Root Beer & An Old Guitar.

Last Thursday was actually my good friend's birthday but since I was busy with work and also he himself was actually busy with class,we decided to celebrate it on Saturday instead.Our original plan (planned by Mr Elias) was to buy his favourite burger and put candles on it,but for some reason I thought it'd be better if we bought a pizza instead and write Happy Birthday using Smarties or M&Ms.So guess what?It was the right decision!Turns out Izat was craving for pizza but didn't have time to actually buy some *silent victory hooray* So we went to his house and surprised him with his pizza "cake".

A smiling 19 years old boy with his pizza.

Weirdness Is Good.

Best friend and insyaAllah more.Amin.

And through it all,you're still right here next to me.Cracking stupid jokes just to make me laugh,letting me win every single stupid fights we have just to make me happy,being childish and weird with me just to make me feel normal,listening to my never-ending ramblings just to see me smile and all the other wonderful things you've given to me.It's almost been what,roughly 4 years now since we first met?And yet we're still the same dorky best friends that we were in Form 3 till now and insyaAllah,maybe more in the future.Amin.

Forgiveness

And through this catastrophe which I had built by myself,I wish to find solace in You.I wish to run away from all the worldly matters and just start fresh.I wish to repent but sadly,I could no longer shed the tears that I wish to shed for You.Hungry desires fueled the empty corner of my heart and slowly,I began to shrink away into this caving darkness.Take me out of this darkness please...

VIA CALCIUMMS

Can I Just Run Away For A While?

VIA KUROI-HIMITSU

I don't know how long I can continue to keep these walls of mine from crumbling.Your constant fighting has made me weaker and weaker everyday.I wish to disappear from this present time and fade away into the past that once held so many happy memories.I've lost count of the tears that I have shed, and I've forgotten what it felt like to feel this odd emotion called happiness when I'm around you.So many days have passed and I pray that we would find our way out of this catastrophe that has befallen on us.And yet,somewhere in the darkest corner of my heart,I no longer hold any hope for us.

Paracosm.

VIA TWISTEDTHEORY

I like ice cream...I want one now.

I think somehow,I'm still stuck in my own paracosm.Whenever I feel like escaping reality,paracosm embraces me with a warm welcome.I'm not even sure if that's good or bad but I gotta feeling - not the song - that somewhere along this road,I'm gonna get myself stuck in a big trouble if don't get rid of my paracosm.

What am I talking about?

Flaws Are Perfection.

 VIA TWISTEDTHEORY

I hate this insecure feeling I have when I see you smile ever so casually with another.I hate these nasty thoughts that start to consume my mind when you both start to fight.I hate this melancholy feeling that washes over me when I see the people I used to care about disappear from my life.I hate all the ungrateful things I say to myself when I look in the mirror.One day I will accept these flaws and make it into something positive.

Syukran...

That moment when you're not pure and you really wanna hear the beautiful verses of the Qur'an for comfort,and He showed the wonders of His bounty by allowing you to listen to Surah Al-Kahf through technology.Subhanallah,indeed You are The Almighty.

Magic Hands.

After so long of not drawing,I finally drew a picture today and guess what?Still got those magic hands *laugh*

Messed up the foot though...

Reminiscence.

VIA CALCIUMMS

I close my eyes and I remember.I remember the red bricks that was gradually being eroded away by the weather,the apple tree in the backyard with it's ripened apples falling ever so gently in slow motion.I remembered the blooming tulips that we planted together during spring,the old bathtub that smelled of strawberries.I remember the old heater that was my sanctuary during the fierce winter,the old floorboards that creaked with every movement.I remember the attic that was full with antique items,left to be covered in dust,forgotten and abandoned.I remember walking to school in the cold,with my scarf high up to my nose to protect me from the cold,the fallen autumn leaves that spoke when people walked on it.I remember the park with its beautiful white swans,yellow ducklings and sneaky ducks.I remember the raspberry bush covered with fat raspberry that hung from its thin vine,waiting for a cheeky hand to set it free.I remember the snowman that melted away at the start of spring,fading away from existence.

I remember the laughter.

I remember the tears.

I remember everything.

Then I woke up.

And I realised...

It was just a memory from the past.